Just 3 weeks ago, I was thinking, uh oh, 21 days to A Levels.

Now, we're just 21 days away from the end of A Levels. But eh, these 21 days seem to be taking forever to arrive.

Can't wait to get it over and done with. At least I will stop spending countless sleepness nights pondering 'Have I done enough?'

All regrets will have to wait until next year, I guess.

Tomorrow, I hope things proceed as per what happened two years ago, in a different hall in a different part of Singapore.

Just do it.

reuben
@ 11:28 PM.

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me


Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead


I hope that by this time next week, I'll be waking up with as much optimism as today.

Just last Saturday, I was wondering how I would be feeling today.

Not much different, I guess.

The strange thing is that you can never feel sufficiently prepared until the day itself.

Hope to memorise all formulae and organic reagents by next week, and not blank out during my Maths and GP exam.

reuben
@ 8:33 AM.

As the clock struck twelve yesterday night, a few digits changed on my digital clock. 11/1. Uh oh.

I wanted to blog about it then but somehow Blogger refused to load. And it is once again, damn bloody slow.

I remember 10th of November last year was a rather bittersweet day. Bitter because there was Oral Presentation, but sweet because it meant 'screw PW'. Like finally.

This year, I don't know what to expect. Less than nine days left. And counting.

The scary part is the first paper. It very much sets the tone for the rest of the examinations. Screw that paper up, and you go 'oh shit, how about the rest'. I really really hope that Maths Paper 1 will turn out well. And as well as GP, which is really ever so unpredictable. Write out of point and that's it. Wrong topic and good game. During O Levels, I had a propensity for one-word topics, so you couldn't really go that much off tangent. I hate argumentative essays with a passion, though I have no choice but to face it now, after years of sitting on the fence. My summary, too, is screwed. And I have no idea how to score for both summary and AQ within that time limit. It's either I give up summary or AQ.

I just hope the topics coming out for GP won't be as tough as last year. And I had a bad, bad dream associated with GP last night, and it had something to do with the mock essay we wrote the other time. I don't know if I'll be collecting it, because it means 45 minutes to and fro. It's rather stupid, they should've given them out during the mass lecture. I don't think it'll make much of a difference anyway; what can you do in one week?

Hopefully I'll get the resolve to read CNN, BBC and maybe a little of our local news publications over this coming week. I'm supposed to summarise all my Economics stuff but haven't gotten the time/resolve to do it yet.

Die die die. So many things and so little time. Still have a whole chunk to eat up. I hope I'll be like a sponge, except for the fact that it will eventually leak out.

I just hope to try my best over this coming week, so as to leave little room for regret.

Go in with a clear, peaceful, but not empty mind.

reuben
@ 11:14 PM.

Lol actually taking a look back at this period umpteen years ago (through my old posts), Octobers have always been sucky eh.

A level this year, dreaded PW OP last year, O levels two years before, PSLE a number of years ago......

Can't wait for six weeks more yo. Unless I totally screw up my As. Which is quite a possibility.

Suddenly feel burnt out AGAIN, surprising considering I haven't done much lately. I'm just gonna sleep early tonight and wake up to a new and better day yo.

Today kinda felt like shit for the most part, dunno why but I guess getting jacked early in the morning (realising only after reaching AMK that today's a public holiday; well done) doesn't do good for your whole entire day.

I'm still waiting for my RMAed Seagate hard disk to come back. It's a wonder how a hard disk takes more than two days to 'ship' within this tiny island. And I wanna get a new computer case after A Levels. I've had enough, I guess.

And I need to train my physical fitness soon! Pathetic 2.4km timings last Sunday, maybe gonna go for another run tomorrow :)

Need to tone up my muscles again man it's come to the point where I almost can't do a single chin-up anymore.

reuben
@ 9:02 PM.

Boomz, and another two years have come and gone.

And it didn't feel like long ago when I wrote this (see the post on 11 Oct).

Well, tomorrow, school officially closes for us. But of course they didn't mention the catch--two weeks of remedial thereafter.

I guess these two years have been a bittersweet experience for me. Sweet, maybe I can't think of them now but I'm sure in future when I look back in nostalgia it'll seem that way. Bitter, maybe because of how I've been exposed to the realities of life in this short time span, or maybe because I've underperformed throughout. I used to under-perform way back in secondary school, but the saving grace was when I reached Secondary Four. But here I am after Prelims having never achieved a grade A for any of my H2 subjects yet. Oh, and I really don't want to end up whereby my only A for 'A' Levels is for Project Work.

I just hope I have the willpower to carry through the past 1 month. I really haven't been working as hard as I should, I feel, and I am still procrastinating. You see, I shouldn't even be here blogging! But I guess being guilty is a good start?

In the short period after prelims, which was supposed to be for rest and recuperation, I wasted it somewhat by tinkering with my computer. 'Cos parts of my system started failing, and as a result I spent considerable time just trying to fix it. I feel rather guilty about that, both by the time wasted and the money spent. In the end I had to buy a new graphics card and a new hard disk. Then, I spent the whole of last weekend and the past few days playing around with the airflow in my system. Today, I have not opened my computer case yet. Let's hope it stays that way.

So, back on topic, tomorrow is farewell assembly. I guess, in time to come, I'll come to miss everything about VJC; it always works that way, doesn't it? Although for the large part school life was rather monotonous, two things stuck out. NDP and Softball. As for the first, it was rather an eye-opener. Learning how to execute basic stunts, and performing in front of a large audience and being on the floating platform for the first time.

And softball, of which at the very end I still couldn't overcome nerves. But at least I learnt how to work better in a team, and made wonderful teammates along the way.

Hopefully, I do well for the coming A Levels eh. I need something to redeem myself!

And oh, the song I just posted is really nice. Especially Leona Lewis' version.

reuben
@ 9:51 PM.

reuben
@ 3:59 PM.

Five more papers to go and it feels like it's holidays already. Lol, maybe it really is, since now it's Hari Raya Puasa. Didn't study at all from Friday to Sunday; I keep telling myself it's a well-deserved break, although maybe it's not, haha.

Did the 2007 Maths Paper 2 today. Gonna do 2008 Paper 2 and Physics tomorrow. I really hope I pull through. Not very confident, since my last attempt at stats ended up like *(@*((*#@.

Watched The Ugly Truth yesterday. Hahaha I think it's freaking hilarious. Not bad la, a welcome change from all those action flicks I've been watching. Thank you for coming.

I think Hollywood or our censorship board is rather obsessed with gore of late. More than half of the freaking films showing are like M18. When you're turning 16 or 18 or 21 it sucks to be born on 30 December. PG and G rated films? Only G-Force. Maybe that's where the G in G-Force comes from.

Anywayyy, 4 more days and I can play tennis again. Momentarily.

Then it's back to full steam. When you think of it in weeks it's rather daunting. Do what I did before Os: count down in seconds instead. I'm sure there's still a couple million more, no worries, right?

Keep hearing this song on the air waves lately. Rather catchy song, but I thought the singer was lesbian or smth cos she kept singing about her number one girl. Like wtf. Until I realised 'she' was a boy. But I mean wtf, he must have issues singing about this kinda stuff when he hasn't even broken his voice lol.

I think many singers have issues nowadays. I mean why the hell will you think that the day you die is the best day of your life?

Hate many of the songs playing on 987fm nowadays. Like a certain song about fireflies, and some guy telling the whole world he loves college.

But not to despair, there are still some nice songs out there that just make you Smile.




You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

reuben
@ 12:18 AM.