passes so fast.... tomorrow its 49 days already.



wtf



49 days since grandma died?



its been long

a long time.



time passes so fast? why? that time i remember she just died.



so many things have happened since then, grandpa died etc.



when 49 days is over, i don't know what i will look forward to... i doubt i'm going down every week to visit my cousins



there is a sense of miss



withdrawal symptoms



3 grandparents reduced to 1

only my other grandmother is left alive

the sole survivor?



look forward to school? boohoo



hope we can visit each other every few weeks



times were good



now i go to my (was) grandmother's house, without a motive



last time was to visit her



now? is to?



its funny to go without an ultimate motive



maybe its me



i guess?



maybe its not



i guess?



isn't it funny



i wish grandma was still alive



the good times remain



she would always treat us to good food.



nice food.



i used to visit her



every 1 or 2 weeks



now WHO THE HELL DO I VISIT



when i go down there?



i doubt my cousins will go to my grandmothers house



until its chinese new year



as



theres no one to visit



so



sad



so



sad



so



damn



bloody



sad



WTF. she died. he died.



and now for my grandpa



i miss his wake



some sort



although it wasn't as 'eventful' as my grandmothers



but i played with my baby cousin



barely 13 months old



she was so cute so nice to play with



do i get a chance next time?



its a once in a lifetime thing



i never played with her before



i have to move on



i don't want to move on



school school everyday



tomorrows 49 days since grandma died



and after that



nothing to look forward to



unless i can meet them



i wish 49 days was extended



to a few years or something



because i really like to play with my cousins



and i have no fun at home...

reuben
@ 10:32 PM.

aftertwo stressful days of homework, i've completed them...



and another of my cousin came online today, first time for me.



and dammit they all have good colour hps while i only have a 2100 argh...

reuben
@ 7:04 PM.

Sorry for not updating, was busy and stuff with the funeral and wake... played with my baby cousin so cute hahah



DIE homework...

reuben
@ 4:16 PM.

dammit so much homework to finish! will update u later

reuben
@ 4:34 PM.

..



while my tuition teacher talked about her student's grandpa die this morning, my grandpa died around 9.25pm.



Coincidence? Maybe...



My grandma didn't die for 49 days yet, and ... he died ...



i am currently confused and in doubt whether i get to go down tomorrow to pray to my grandma. was suppose to play badminton tomorrow. was i going? or not?



unexpected, unexpected. my sis' predictions were correct, she had a gut feeling that he was going to die this year, about one-two weeks ago...



i ain't that closed to him, but somehow, i feel sad.



not to mention he lives two houses away...



so the article on 2100 won't come soon, keep u updated.

reuben
@ 10:23 PM.

unexpectedly, i bought a nokia 2100 yesterday



my sis helped me in a way to getting it



quite happy with the 2100, i'm looking for a simple and light phone, and the 2100 satisfy the criteria.



however i found the phone a little 'childish and ugly', unlike the 8250. but hey its only S$198 without a plan, i can't nag about it haha



has chinese input too and is way lighter than my previous 3xxx series phone or my samsung sgh r220 phone, at only 85.7g.



no mms or any fancy, but it does what i want. i'm using a hi card anyway so sending a mms is very damn expensive.



only nags are no voice dials and couldn't find any xpress-on covers yet. also the sides cannot be changed.



rubbery buttons too with it elevated sucks.



opening the back isn't sliding it anymore, its pulling it off the top. my fingernails are damn short as i admit to biting them so its quite a pain removing them



despite these minor flaws, the nokia 2100 rocks ass. and its a new model.



i'm glad nokia released some low-end no frills phone instead of going all-colour.



looks nicer than 8310 and has a nice white light which doubles up as a torch.



it would be nice if the design was like the 8250 though.

reuben
@ 3:02 PM.

my mum found 3210 instead of 3350, damn



came back from chinatown

reuben
@ 12:56 PM.

good morning, here am i blogging on an early saturday morning. pretty excited going to go nel at 10am... just hope it doesn't r.a.i.n... that will just ruin my day.



and i decided, since victor (owner of mirc-central, my good friend) has mirc-central splash! for his next version of mirc script, i'll have trenzterra whirl.



hmm



transporting you to irc... in a whirl

transporting you to irc... with a splash of magic



nice... nice....



gonna sleep. yawnz

cyas

reuben
@ 12:08 AM.

wow the treo hp-pda is crazy... its like, so many damn keys. i would like a flip to cover those ugly stuff up...





shrugs another to-be-nokia i think...

reuben
@ 11:51 PM.

urging my mum to find my nokia 3350. she found that old 3210 which i obviously don't want, i hope she can find it...



mircscripts.org is up



north east line mrt in singapore is open, tomorrow going to china town via mrt, gonna be the guinea pigs heh



the handphone craze is coming back - it comes back during the hols. hrm



i seriously need a life :p

reuben
@ 11:46 PM.

Now I seriously hope fubar, the owner of mIRCScripts.org won't give up on his site, as its f'kingly fast now. Seems like the SYN flooders have gotten enough fun and things should be back to normal. I can see 100 users online now. It's back to normal, at least for now.



I'm not sure about next time though...

reuben
@ 10:21 PM.

i think i have a problem with my back. was so pain that since 4am i couldn't sleep. thank god its morning already. yay.



msn messenger 6 preview is out, i downloaded it! quite nice, waiting for more people to go online, to play games.

reuben
@ 7:38 AM.

OOPS! The other post made the site not html 4.01 transitional. i have since fixed the bug and now i'll try a post without titles.

reuben
@ 11:18 PM.

wow i just discovered, while playing with the settings, that blogger basic had the title thingy! i thought it was for blogger pro only. so here i am testing.

reuben
@ 11:09 PM.

haha the sarvivor rap quite funny.



i added 3 of my cousins to msn messenger, they tell me yesterday, only 1 come online so far though. they are bros and sis and got only 1 com. haha i think the other 2 lazy come on.



i got an uptime record. 10 hours in undernet and still counting, i just broke my 10 hour idling time in austnet. its a record for me!



tomorrow gonna be a busy day, update ya tomorrow.

reuben
@ 11:01 PM.

yeah came back from grandmother house, good and bad stuff...



bad: fell inside drain, knocked my head against the wall, doctor said i'm ok mwhahahaa



good: had lots of fun, realised how good my badminton skills were, nice food, games: badminton, murderer, heart attack.





overall it was fun and i tested out my sports shoe. hrm now i want my hp :(

reuben
@ 10:20 PM.

going to my grandmothers house soon, get to see all my cousins again, yay :)



i installed msg plus today... accidentally installed the sponser.



IT SUCKS



i took 1-2 hours to remove it, and phew, finally I got the damn thing off... I think when theres msn 6 i better avoid msg plus hah

reuben
@ 2:50 PM.

I forgot to update yesterday :P Was busy with TrenzTerra Seagull.



Oh well, tomorrow I'll be going down to my grandmothers house again. So fast....

reuben
@ 9:02 AM.

Hrm, 4 weeks since my grandmother died... How time flies!



Tuesday I'll be going down to her (old?) house to pray, funny eh, not Thursday anymore for the last 3 times.



Really! Only 3 more sessions left. I thought it was just the beginning of the first few seven days. Yes, 4th is at the beginning, yet at the end. I wonder, I wonder..........................................................

reuben
@ 11:00 PM.

Boo! Friday the 13th. Lets see if anything bad happens



And the fourth visit of my grandmother was over yesterday, only 21 more days till 49 days. Time passes so damn fast. Still remembered the day when she died, 27 days have passed since then...

reuben
@ 6:42 PM.

did a system restore today.



and i feel like writing something today.





A moment of sadness passed over me,

As I was reminded of several things,

The simple life of this past,

How carefree I was,

How nice it was,

As tears ran down my eyes.



I remembered my late grandmother,

Who gave me nice treats,

Her life weren't easy,

Without her,

Without me.



Files which were forty weeks old,

Were wiped away in an hour,

The pain of getting those files,

Are wiped away faster than creating them.



As I looked back,

I somehow regret,

The path which I took,

The path of simplicity,

The path of a carefree life,

I wish I could be,

Where I was,

Years ago.

reuben
@ 11:27 AM.

bought a new mouse yesterday and used it today. works fine, too small though



converted my hdd to ntfs from fat32, but ntfs became dodgy, probably because i didn't clean install when doing it.



so now thingy works twice as slow, and it sux... so i am off to neowin to ask.

reuben
@ 8:45 PM.

woohoo i went on time to release aero script v2



bought a crossover cable from the diy shop, hope its not straight if it is it means i'm really dumb.



don't know what to update, so for now, thats that.

reuben
@ 7:35 PM.

Hmmm wasn't able to log on yesterday, so couldn't update...



Oh well.



Yesterday morning was great. went to the hawker centre ate wanton mee then go to market bought a big fish.



then came home, and went out again for cycling.



seems like i lost interest in smilies already. i regret setting it up? sort of.



had that big fish for dinner yesterday night. yummy.



today had to go back to sch although its hols. damn sux.



not to mention the homework.



did the final touchup for aero script v2, honestly the channel protection system isn't tested.



129 changes are currently recorded for the script, should remain that way and maybe update the roadmap.



i started networking. i was in luck as the cable that came with my ethernet modem was a crossover cable. so i used the winxp cd i found two days ago to install it. unfortunately, microsoft wanted $$ and needed a previous version of windows to do a clean install. i have a windows me cd luckily, but not on hand. lazy to find it (i found it today...), so i just did a bloody hell damn upgrade from windows me (i used restore cd, not windows me upgrade cd). so days of using mandrake linux 9 remains memories. mandrake linux 9 sux anyway, had a hard time using it. oh no, don't flame me please. ok it sux for me, maybe not for you. so where was i? so yeah, after installing xp, i linked up the two damn computers. at first had some problems, bleh, i didnt detect the workgroup computers, so i did view workgroup computers and it automatically added the folders. dumb i think, imo.



oh by the way, read an article about Intel pentium 4 ht and windows xp.



it says that XP gets 'fooled' into thinking that HT is multi processor.



win9x doesn't support multi-processor of course, so in a way, xp is smart, but in another way, it makes xp feel stupid. its like previous versions aren't as stupid as xp as they don't get fooled. maybe its me hahaha.



hrm what a long article but i haven't finished ranting. bear with me.



i missed pc show 2003, i thought it was going to be longer than what it really was. it ended yesterday, oh well, maybe have to wait for 2004. really wanted to check out the hp and dell booth.



so fast, three weeks and 2 days since my grandma died, i don't miss her very much as i did initially, maybe its a good sign, i'm getting over it?



finally did a compo today, although it was rather short. i saved it to my other computer.



and i installed norton av 2002 i downloaded from kazaa. no, it isn't illegal, as i owned a legal copy but lost the cd. so it should be legal i think? I dont see the difference anyway...



so now i have a sort of 40gb hdd...too bad i don't have two ethernet ports, if not i dont need to go offline to do networking.



oh btw, word 2k by m$ pissed me off. i turned off spell checking as i didn't want to cheat on my compo, when i mistyped which as whcih in a hurry, word corrected it for me. wtf can't it read properly?! i tried deleting the dictionary but holy gosh, it was too smart for me.



so aero script 2 should be released tomorrow. probably.



enough of my long ranting i guess.... hols starts next week for me. damn it, sux.

reuben
@ 8:41 PM.

hrm i get bored so easily. and i forgot to update yesterday!



yesterday went to my new flat, fixed the bamboo chic and stuff... waited 1 hr for the man to come as he was waiting at the void deck and we in the unit. what a waste of time....



so we came home 7pm.



today, 3 weeks since my grandmother died. i don't feel so sad now as one, two, three weeks ago although i feel sad when I think about her.



time passes so fast. 49 days will be gone in a zoom... may be writing an essay today.



sch hols starts next week, although officially it starts now. damn teacher.



today i did some mirc scripting, june 10th is coming. its like so fast man. finished up most of the channel protection system which was a hell lot to do. now have to fix the interface and its done. :)

reuben
@ 10:28 AM.

was disappointed 3 of my cousins didn't turn up... those i alwaysplay with. oh well, rest went well.



haha while burning paper money, the tar burnt for a long time, water didn't help... time 'healed' the tar. what a joke.

reuben
@ 8:57 PM.

Time passes so fast, as I see my first entry of my blog. Been three whole weeks now. time runs fast. super fast. i didn't even know 1 week has passed and its thursday again, it seemed to be just around 2-3 days ago.. amazing how time flies.



soon, 49 days will be over, back to norm life, and i won't see my cousins for a long long long time. last time there was an incentive as my grandma was alive... now the only time to meet after 49 days would be chinese new year i guess. so sad. so sad...



Modified version of a song...



Why does the time keep on flying?

Why does the time never stop?

See and you know, the time never stops,

And it keeps increasing every second....



The time never stops,

Oh the time never stops,

The time won't ever say goodbye.



Repeat it 10x.

reuben
@ 4:05 PM.

I have a resolution to write a compo every week. i don't like paper, don't like pen, as my hand gets sweaty. neither do i have a tabby either. so i'll use the wonderful invention of the keyboard to write it in MS Word after turning off the spell checker... and when its ready, i'll turn on the spell checker, correct and learn the mistakes and enjoy my compo... need some topics to write on though. suggestions email me. bye, approaching 4pm.

reuben
@ 3:57 PM.

yet another thursday, have to pray to my grandma.



and yet another quest to learn php? maybe tonight...



going at 4, 4 is coming soon. finished a whole pile of homework, was afraid couldn't finish on time.



and i love my tower fan, it rox like the wind. really!

reuben
@ 3:47 PM.

Time to update.



nothing much though, was playing around with optimizing my system today. i was bored and had nothing to do. instead,i decided to optimize the boot time and such. and i saved 10 seconds of boot time. yeah!

reuben
@ 8:40 PM.

had national fitness test (napfa) today.



got 13 points, 1 point better than last year :P



1st try / 2nd try



shuttle run: 12.7s / 11.8s

standing broad jump: 163cm / 148cm (teacher was so damn fussy that I didn't give a damn about the second reading and jumped so little cm)

sit ups: 29

incline pull ups: 4

sit and reach: 35cm



so i came back late.



i decided to learn some php programming, motivation because of smilies.uni.cc? there goes another hint that i may stop trenzterra script soon... maybe not anytime soon? php seems great and easy, after playing with chicken feed mirc scripting for more than 2 years.



so maybe i can make a counter... soon? :)

reuben
@ 10:29 PM.

I added 'sad' section to my smiley website at http://smilies.uni.cc.

Smilies seem... fun. Besides sharing with other people, I get to use them myself... Hopefully they get popular?

reuben
@ 4:27 PM.

and i noticed my mouse isn't as responsive as before. i sense a problem... i'll get a new optical mouse soon i hope..

reuben
@ 10:14 PM.

Just came back from thomson plaza... and ate dinner. it's so late already.



Didn't update as I was busy with the smiley website and stuff. Today no new smilies though, was busy playing around with phpAdsNew. after 1-2 hours, i got it to work. i decided to have a text ad exchange.



So fast, it's june already.



i cancelled aero script 2 rc2 it was a waste of time updating stuff. i decided to leave it for the big day on 10th june. next time i won't be giving any release dates, it's making me very stressed when i hit the deadline.



Seems like my smiley website is going to be big... soon. people actually do visit it!

reuben
@ 10:11 PM.