冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千
梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变你走过的世界
你用你的指尖
阻止我说再见
想象你在身边
在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋
这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现
这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡


exams are over. and my results slip will be beautiful indeed. cos everything's a U, for Uniformity.

if theres anything i learnt from mr teo in gp last term, it would be that people are superficial. like you say things like 'how are you?' and stuff not because they are genuinely concerned about you, but rather as a form of greeting and to spark off a conversation because they need to. c'mon, how many of you say 'how are you?' and mean it truthfully?


has been a loong long time since i last blogged about life in detail. or rather pictures. but i realise i haven't really snapped anything recently. and photobucket is being a pin in the neck cos it's stuck at 74% for the past five minutes.

gyming alone is quite fun sometimes, when you need some time alone. about two weeks ago that was just what happened.





peace, serenity.

when you're alone, there's no pressure to perform. own time, own target. no one eyeing your machines, able to choose your favourite treadmill, no one to show off to. trapped alone with machines, with no one watching (except maybe bored people watching the cctv). blast your favourite music, without anyone complaining. trapped in your own world, at least for a moment. time seems to slow down, and the only thing you can hear is your heartbeat and the whizzing of the aircon.

but then the beep at the door just has to sound, and someone comes in.

being alone is not something that many people like, me included. but i guess sometimes, we need to be alone, to be able to sit down/stand up/gym and reflect (not as in looking into the mirror).



and here's the bird nest at jon's house window the other time.

mid-year exams, come and gone. thank god. somehow my feeling now is something like O levels being over, nothing to worry about, and all my notes are left in a mess (i almost tore them up only to realise that i need them for the next 1.5 years). but i guess study sessions were fun, maybe cos we didn;t really study. at the library, with danny and eugene and jc and zm and lionel. at the study room, with lionel and albert and jocelyn, at zh's house, with jon and lionel and zh and at home, alone. hahah. but somehow we always end up playing after like 1 hour or so. even at home, i tend to get distracted after a while.

but at least it's all over, and i know i tried my best. well, it's time to move on i guess, as with everything else in life. there's still promos to work for, and i guess i'll probably make use of the study room membership after the results are released. haha why am i becoming so mugger??


ndp thingy today again. and i really don't feel like going anymore. haha especially with the 'lifejacket' costumes and beanie. maybe they're afraid we'll get wet if we ever fall into the platform. but i guess a deal is a deal, i can't possibly back out now. well, just hope for the best and that everything turns out well. maybe it'll be a good experience afterall.


softball. im unsure of my ability.


and i guess that's all for now?



The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

reuben
@ 8:12 AM.

断了的弦　再怎么练　我的感觉　你已听不见
你的转变　像断掉的线　再怎么接　音都不对
你的改变　我能够分辨
我沈默　你的话也不多　我们之间少了什么　不说　哎哟
微笑后　表情终于有点难过　（握著你的手）　问你确定了再走
我突然释怀的笑　笑声盘旋半山腰
随风在飘摇啊摇　来到你的面前绕
你泪水往下的掉　说会记住我的好
我也弯起了嘴角　笑
你的美　已经给了谁　追了又追　我要不回
我了解　离开树的叶　属于地上的世界　凋谢
断了的弦　再弹一遍　我的世界　你不在里面
我的指尖　已经弹出茧　还是无法留你在我身边
断了的弦　再怎么练　我的感觉　你已听不见
你的转变　像断掉的线　再怎么接　音都不对
你的改变　我能够分辨





i think i've given up on mid-years. hahah.

reuben
@ 10:06 PM.

long time since i last blogged!

hahah now using this old acer laptop. about 6 years ago xp ran quite smoothly on this system with 128mb ram. but i guess as time passes by applications become even more demanding huh. firefox runs quite well on this laptop, but ie7 is just zzz.

anddd it has ATI blood in it. hahah.


suddenly have the urge to play bball and dota. although i suck at both of them. last sat was fun, haven't gone to serangoon central to bball for a very long time. lol and didn't go jon's hse for a very long time too. although we didn't end up studying. how time zoomsssssss (time flies is like so cliche so i won't use that k). and there's a bird nest at his room window. hahaha. i scared the mother away so the poor babies get no food. lol. i have a pic but i can't plug in my phone here.



well last week was mostly spent studying. because there's like no other time left where i could study. thursday and fri was spent at bishan library--haven't been there at 10am since last october. but zm just had to come with his psp that i just had to play. hahah. nba live. i guess lakers losing celtics is fated hahahah. until friday when i finally won celtics. yay. and outrun2 sp is fun.



today's monday and physics was screwed. after sch went to serangoon cc with albert lionel to study and fang he who got jacked hahahh. then somehow albert saw his classmate jocelyn there so we studied tgt. then jc and charles joined us later, but after a while jc chu stunt and left. hahah quite cool, today 3 ppl signed up for membership. hahah. well, hope we can study there more often then, cos i wasted like 3 months of membership alr. cos i wont go cc to study alone sincee i have the radio and com at home. which is a double edged sword i guess. see, i should be reading econs now instead of blogging.


but im so damn sleepy. and theres like 3h30min+2h45min of exams tomorrow. wtf.


sleep>exams, so im gonna go sleep now. bb.

reuben
@ 9:25 PM.

damn i just seem to sit down and study. easily distracted nowadays. sometimes i even wonder how i managed to get through O levels. well people say you can't get through As the same way... i guess it's true huh. cos i think i'll be failing maths zz.


spent the whole of last night tossing and turning, only to fall asleep like 3 hours later.... i've thought about many things, and here's my conclusion:















NEVER drink coffee at night. strange thing was that the coffee only took effect when i was gonna sleep; while studying i was like drifting off zz.


time to get back to studying and maybe gyming later. i still can't meet silver. zz.

reuben
@ 3:45 PM.

decided to try out vista again ytd. cos now there's sp1 so i thought it would be more stable.

to my surprise sp1+windows update managed to find all the drivers i needed... but there's still 2 missing drivers, which i dunno what they are for hahah.

but vista is still laggy, or maybe my com is just old. hah. i guess dual core is pretty much a requirement huh. which is sad coss i wanted to make it my main os! but zz, i guess not yet. ff3 is way too laggy on it


ok on to other stuff. hahah chem tuition is irritating when the tutor says 'oh we'll skip question x cos we alr went through before'. wow, cos i wasn't there zz.

oh well. im not aiming for an A or B.. just a pass will do. plspls let me pass everything. oh and gp, it's pretty screwed. next tuesday is gg cos gp and econs is on the same day!!

and here i am staring at my maths notes. if only looking at them would make me understand everything. my gc's dusty, i realise i haven't turned it on in weeks. i just realised i don't really know how to use the gc, i better start reading up huh.


i think studying at night is much better, cos the radio plays much better songs (at least in my opinion hahah). and what could be better than muttons to midnight.



collected my softball gloves today after like duno how many months. haha i love the leather smell. and why do i have the urge to throw the two softballs in my gloves right now? haha. rather sadly it's inscribed with the words 'vjc (girls)'. talk about sexism..


hm. I SHOULD BE STUDYING!

reuben
@ 8:32 PM.

i wonder what's the hype about the new iPhone?

sure it now has 3g (it should have long time ago), but has otherwise remained unchanged.

which means,
- no mms
- no video call
- camera can't take videos
- no java (although it's supposedly coming soon)
- no 2mp non auto-focus camera in an era of 5mp cameras
- no a2dp
- no flash
- no msn

well seriously while i have no qualms about buying an iPod touch (if i had the money teehee although i'd rather buy a psp) i don't think i'll ever buy an iPhone although it has all the bling bling and stuff


but instead i want a sony ericsson g900!

reuben
@ 8:02 AM.

so finally i know where the floating platform is. hahah. but somehow i feel that the platform is facing the wrong side currently, cos all one can see from the grand stand are cranes, cranes and more cranes. what used to be all those ulu steamboat restaurants have all made way for redevelopment, i guess.

no stunts up on sat, which i was thankful for.

kbox ytd was fun and crazy. hahahah. towards the end we all started playing all those damn high songs, like 我相信 无双 and 你把我灌醉 (and screaming all the way). then we tried to copy aska yang when we sang 新不了情 LOL. hahah can say that we were really all 灌醉 alr. and we sang hokkien songs also hahahah. and all those super old mandarin songs. hahahah. and we were almost chased out by the end LOL. hahah. kbox's fun when u have all the crazy ppl i guess!


and what am i doing here. i should be studying!!



is ignorance really bliss?

reuben
@ 10:19 AM.

well the song below is your love is a lie by simple plan. haha. i guess it's being overplayed on the radio? the song was playing right when i turned on the radio yesterday... and today it was playing on wkrz 91.3 and then when i changed to 987fm they started playing the song again. hahah.


it has been a long while since i last studied at night. still remember rushing through maths/chem/geog/hist/ss through the night during O levels, while tuning in to yes933. today i did just that again, minus the O levels. 弦歌记忆--exactly what i listened to last year. but the songs are different now huh.

ndp cheerlead's tomorrow. how 3 weeks have come and gone. and i've forgotten like almost everything. oh shit.

and i hope it's not too late to catch up on everything i've been sleeping through the past 6 months =\

reuben
@ 10:45 PM.

I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 o'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone

I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that i trust you
And do you think about me when he f**ks you?
Could you be more obscene?

So dont try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know,
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)
You're nothing but a lie

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
(Lie
I know you're nothing but a lie
(Lie)
Lie
(Lie)
Lie
(Lie)
Lie

Your love is just a lie



bleh there's school today.

reuben
@ 9:50 AM.

today's 6-05 day (june 5th). haha. it's a wonder how time flies, 5 years and we've all grown and changed.

reuben
@ 10:48 PM.

my wallet seems to be getting fatter lately. filled up by receipts, cards, and ticket stubs. well, the only thing that doesn't seem to grow fatter is the cash in it.

i realise ticket stubs are the main culprit. since oct 2006, i've been keeping all my ticket stubs. and i've counted 28 of them.

every ticket stub evokes a certain memory. chinese Os, pri school, sec school, jc, fc et cetera.......

maybe that's why i'm reluctant to throw them away? it's kinda amazing to see how many movies you have watched in a certain time period; actually, this applies to almost everything as well, i was quite shocked when i saw the accumulated value in my tapz card (im 1/3 of my way to a MIP).



but as with every other piece of memory, they have to be discarded someday. maybe not just yet.





and omg i've a big pile of work right in front of me

reuben
@ 11:19 AM.

But if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there in the morning to pull you through


mm, who will be there in the morning? hahahah. i wonder.


life sucks when you suddenly realise that you don't know what topics are coming out for the midyears and you don't know how to do 90% of the questions =\

reuben
@ 8:01 AM.

reuben
@ 7:11 AM.

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you
And all along, you were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything that I need just to make it

And I believe that I could tear you apart but it won't break anything that you are, you are
We'll say our goodbyes you know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, our love is at a bind

I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose
I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship is running ground

I could tear you apart, but it won't break anything that we are, we are
We'll say our goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need all we need, our love is at a bind
Every single day that I can breathe, you changed my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by
So don't say your goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change [x2]
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, our love is at a bind

reuben
@ 7:04 PM.

june! almost half the year gone, and as everyone says, a quarter of jc life gone. how sad, when we're just becoming accustomed to it. but nevermind there's still a hell long way to go including the A levels which i do not wish to be reminded of right now.

i just randomed pick one colour in gimp and it turned out to be this shade of grey on the background of this page (or whatever you call #2f2f2f). and i changed the banner too.

and i think the georgia font looks real nice, so yeah here i am using this instead of verdana.


first week of hols came and went, and i didn't touch any school work at all. sometimes it feels good just staying at home and doing nothing productive. no stress nor worries. but i guess i'll have to start revision from tomorrow onwards, or i'll flung my mid-years flat. somehow everything feels like sec3 all over again. i'm lacking motivation and i think i'll just barely pass (or fail) the mid-years. and i'm worried about my gp seeing how my a1 has dropped to an f9 now.



i guess the past week was pretty unlucky. and i'm sure my bicycle hates me. because the rear tyre decided to burst while i was cycling. well actually the tyre was a little out of shape, but i didn't really care as long as it could turn. well, then it burst. but i've learnt that you can still cycle even with a flat tyre! although it'll be a little tougher.


somehoww i think even going out is boring. cos it's only the same few things that we do—pool, lan, cards, arcade, basketball. i wanna go kbox!!!!! that imitation kbox at zh's house on fri was really crazy hahahh i hope the neighbours don't complain.


and my phone is weird; little droplets of crystal/water keep seeping into my screen.


oh and i didn't realise national day is like just 2 months away. and we're still like newbies.


and half the year is gone and i'm still a softball noob with poor fitness. sigh.


and i've played dota for a year now and i'm still as noob as ever.


time to find something i'm good at eh?


oh and i thought only we people disagree sometimes and get into fights.

but it seems that even cats do disagree, sometime.


these two cats were mewing fiercely at each other while staring at each other's eyes. i wonder if they fought afterward??

All Fall Down - OneRepublic
Step out the door and it feels like rain
That's the sound (that's the sound) on your window pane
Take to the streets but you can't ignore
That's the sound (that's the sound) you're waiting for

You feel that your will starts crashing down
Whenever you're will starts crashing down
Whenver your will starts crashing down
That's when you find me.

Yeah God love your soul and your aching bones
Take a breath, take a step, maybe down below
Everyone's the same
My fingers to my toes
We just can't get a ride
But we're on the road

If ever your will starts crashing down
Whenever your will starts crashing down
Whenever your will starts crashing down
That's when you find me.

Chorus:

(Yeah) Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown

Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Jump till you break
Know that we all fall down

If ever your will starts crashing down
Whenever your will starts crashing down
If ever your will starts crashing down
That's when you'll find (find) me

Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Jump till you break
Know that we all fall down

All fall down, we all fall down, all fall down
We all fall down, all fall down, all fall down

Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Jump till you break
Know that we all fall down

very nice song, as are most other 1rep songs. haha.

reuben
@ 12:41 PM.